so you guys remember my post the other day about emotional "highs and lows".... well now its nothing buy deep down lows....

me and my boyfriend broke up last night, and i haven't slept (its now 6.00am)... its really complicated, but to shorten it, he didn't want a committed relationship, i did, and so we broke it off because he didn't want to be with me since he wouldn't be able to make me happy and give me what i wanted.

he still really wants to be friends, cuz he cares for me so much, but clearly that's gonna be really hard for me.

but i've been crying all night, because he is the first guy i've been this crazy about...... alls i wanna do is be with him right now, and i cant -- not in the way i want, at least.... its over.

 

ah, thats a big shame, mulder, im very sorry for you!
all i can say, im sure you will meet the right guy sometime,
i know its hard to get over... just try to make the most out of it, and i know how hard it is to just "be friends"

Yeah man keep your head up, there is someone out there that will be perfect for you.

Just you wait, mark my words!

Just keep on going, man.  These things heal in time.

i know.... the only hard part is that he IS the perfect guy... like everything about him, his personality, his generousity (he's even starting his own charity organization!) he's amazing, and i really wanted him to be the one.. but there isnt anything i can do to change what he feels

so i have to go to work today at 5.00pm-11.30pm.. its the last thing i want to do.. i wish i could go see him and he'd put his arms around me and tell me everything will be okay  

What you should do now is just get on with your life, and let the dust settle. In time after the dust settles for him, he may reanalyze his feelings for you and may change his mind. If not you will have moved on.

Hey if it makes you feel better the girl I've been seeing just said to me "You know, I don't like you as much as I thought I did"  

instead of trying to outdo each other's stories, you should collaborate and write country music

Quote (Cobalt60 @ April 15 2005, 12:59 am)

instead of trying to outdo each other's stories, you should collaborate and write country music

If Mulder does, he will have to write it as Gender Neutral coz country music isn't ready for a non-hetero relationships.

Quote (Cobalt60 @ April 15 2005, 12:59 am)

instead of trying to outdo each other's stories, you should collaborate and write country music

No better yet we need to put on some avril lavigne so we can feel like theres somebody out there who knows what we're going through, and we can cry into our pillows.